What's happened in five years:

• Paris is now a sassy & precocious pre-schooler who loves to wear dresses and climb trees.
  
• I've changed jobs twice...three times if you count a promotion.
• The hubby has stayed in the same job!
  
• We've added a dog to our family.
• We bought a home.
• My younger sister had the nephew and is in the process of moving back in with our dad.
  
• My youngest sister is now married and step-mom to a teenage girl and a tween boy.
• This blog is rarely updated anymore cause I have a new blog.
• And much, much more than I care to document here. But oddly, life has gone on without my mom.
  

On Mother's Day, the hubby said something to me that made me smile and cry (I'm crying right now) and Ella saw. She asked why I was crying and I said, "Because I miss my mom." She hugged me. Of course, each time she mentions my mom, she adds in, "She's dead right?" Which at the same time pains me but also makes me chuckle because I wonder if she's really thinking that one day I'll say, "Oh, no! Here she is!" Kids...

I didn't do anything to mark her death day yesterday, other than spend quality time with Ella.

I'm getting there. One day at a time. I'm getting there.

It's just so hard to have Mother's Day and her death day so close together. But I guess it's kinda like ripping a band-aid off...do it all at once, quickly, to get it over with.

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