I'm home



Mom: 1956 - 2003

This is my favorite picture of my mom and me. It was taken when we were living in Colorado while my dad was in the Army. My mom died last Sunday after a long struggle with diabetes. Her leg was much worse than I ever knew, by the time the doctors could amputate it, it was too late to save her. She just refused to let them take the leg.

I'm still very, very numb with a ton of anger. I don't know when I'll be back here on a regular basis. I don't feel like doing much of anything anymore. The bed feels like the best place for me. But the hubby has been at my side to keep me going. We went to the midwife yesterday and not only heard Paris' heartbeat, but he got to feel where Paris' head is! Paris is definately ready to come into this world - its head has been down for a good month. We keep telling Paris it needs at least 6-8 more weeks to finish cooking. Paris makes me smile.

Thanks to you all who sent love my way and were worried during my 2 week hiatus. I'll be back. Maybe my massage & yoga class this morning will make me feel a little better. At least my body will feel better.

Love you all.